Do you commit a sin, feel very bad and wonder if there are people like you who have committed that same sin and if they felt as bad as you felt?
Do you wonder if there are people like you battling the same struggles you are battling?
Do you see a good person and wish you could be good/pure like them?
Do you wish you could go back in time and erase some things from your past?
Do you think back on some mistakes and regret those mistakes so much, that you avoid thinking about them at all cost?
Do you think about how far you have gone in life and wonder why God still blesses, keeps and loves you?
Do you think about how much God blesses you despite your mistakes and your heart fills up with so much gratitude?
Do you think about all this gratitude you heart fills up with and can hardly find words to express it?
Do you think about how merciful, wonderful, loving God is and want to do everything to stay holy for him?
Do you promise to read your bible more but then hardly follow through despite your deep desire to follow through?
Do you try to justify those desires you know are wrong by looking for an alternative to them?
Well I do too. We sometimes think we are the only ones going through our various struggles, and that we are bad people or not good Christians or something is wrong with us. This makes it difficult for us to share with other people who have gone through these struggles and have overcome them, these people could be of help to us but only if we share with them.
I understand the fear of can I trust this person with my struggles, will this person tell someone else or will this person look at me differently....and then you get scared and decide to keep it to yourself. This doesn't help, rather it causes more issues most times.
Well there is one friend you can share all of these things with and that person is Jesus and he would always give you someone or lead you to someone who you can share these struggles with and will help. If you are like me, my next question is 'how do I know when Jesus is leading me to the person?'. Well I don't have an answer to that question but I believe if he is leading you to a person, there should be peace within you about that person.
Note it might not be just one person, it could be more than one person.
Really though the work really relies with us, like accepting help from God, sticking through the change process, self discipline, obedience and the likes.
Love,
Your friend
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